done with school!! it's weird.

 i am done with my junior year of high school! writing that is weird and i can tell i'll probably go back and find this in several years and get all weird and nostalgic about the person i am right now. future frankie if you're reading this i love you so much and i bet you're so cool and sexy and hopefully acting and singing and shit and being creative. but now i'm going to talk about my junior year. which is done.

junior year still seems so mature to me. i met hayden when he was a junior and now i'm no longer a junior. i still feel so barely different from when i was like. an eighth grader. in a couple of years any year of high school will probably seem like a baby to me but right now i still feel out of place.

shit was by far the hardest year of school so far for me. obviously covid was a part of it but holy SHIT why did i take three ap classes and why am i taking three more this coming year. thanks a lot mom for making me feel like if i'm not drowning in work i'm wasting my time and not applying myself. i definitely feel like i got some good shit out of this year academically though.

my apush class was kinda stupid fun. lots of funny people in there and thankfully no republican asswipes that ruined the mood. i definitely felt very accepted by the majority of guys in my grade which is something i've felt like i've been missing out on for the past couple years. since elementary school i've had this shitty mindset of "i'm weird and different and no one likes me" that i'm just starting to grow out of and i think this year helped a lot with that. for the most part my grade is good and the truth is i am weird and different and people do like me a lot.

i'm mainly making this post cause i was thinking about my wonderful ap lang teacher who was a long term sub this year and i really hope she comes back next year and teaches lit. there are plenty of jokes about lgbt students and their relationships they have with their english teachers and man those jokes exist for a reason cause i love that woman so much. one of her shining qualities was whenever she'd be all "yass" at me for being trans and doing shit like writing my little trans article she would say things in a way that i actually valued what she, a cis person, was saying about my bravery for being trans. i ended up telling her about my screenplay one day a couple weeks ago cause i was so damn excited about it and she asked if she could read it and she ended up giving me a lot of praise for it that felt very good. she also told me that my 70s day outfit was very modern jay gatsby and i'm going to be riding that compliment for a very long time. ms hayden, this one is for you.

junior year: done! goodbye! senior year: coming! scary! but now i have summer which is nice i'm excited for this summer. goodnight.