script sneakpeek cause i wanna talk about it

it's cause jack was happy and enjoying his powers in the woods with peter which represents gender euphoria and when you experience gender euphoria for the first time you don't realize that the rest of your life can be that feeling all the time because you've lived so long without it. i used the woods because i spent a good amount of time processing Gender Thoughts my freshman year while taking walks in the woods with hayden and also because the woods have helped me experience gender euphoria just by like being a boy with hayden those first couple weeks after realizing i was a trans dude and also trekking through the woods makes me feel very masculine. anyways the woods = happiness, euphoria, sanctuary, love, home. i hope all of your lives can be like your own woods experiences.

had a little idea today

i had an idea today for something funny i could maybe write so i'm putting here so i don't forget about it

MAKING A MOVIE!!! BITCH!!!

 i'm two drafts into a script that i have had bouncing around in my head since freshman year and holy SHIT does it feel good!!! i realized recently that now when i feel unmotivated and shitty and like there's nothing to look forward to i just think about my script and the prospect of filming it this summer and i am so happy.

link is trans!! no ifs ands or buts.

 here it is, the post you've all been waiting for. you read the twitter thread but are you ready for the multi-paragraph analysis blog post? fuck yes you are. this is why link breathofthewild is a trans man.

my journey to become the character i played when i was 14

 this is a weird post so bear with me.

when i was in eighth grade i was in james and the giant peach and i played my first ever lead. i was the magic man, who had a name in the musical, ladahlord, which is an anagram for roald dahl which i think is very cool. if you're not familiar with the plot of james and the giant peach the magic man is the catalyst for all of the events in the story--he gives james a potion that james is supposed to drink, but he spills it on the peach tree and it makes the peach and all the insects get really big. i've always wondered what the hell would have happened if james had drank it, but that's a question for another day.

dysphoria. bad.

 i'm currently sitting in apush readjusting the worn-out binder i'm wearing every thirty seconds so it puts the right amount of pressure on my chest, both so i can be sure that my chest is flat and because i've worn a binder for over two years now and being out in public without constant pressure around my chest feels very wrong. i'm wearing a t-shirt with a heavy flannel buttoned up most of the way over it and there's still a pit in my stomach because i'm so afraid everyone can tell something is wrong.